You are always reading and I want to ask you: ‘Do you feel, sometimes, only sometimes, that reality is a burden?’ ‘Do you feel the urge to just lose yourself between black-inked thoughts?’

I am very curious about what hides behind your sparkling eyes when you see a book. Do you hope to drown yourself in words,  forgetting the real thirst?

You flinch easily, you throw a hunted look behind, you smile, sometimes laugh without a reason and I can see myself in your blue eyes. I do that too, this is why I want to ask you.

Is it easy to turn your back on reality? Is it that easy to forget about the annoying, yet pleasing, sound of living? 

You sometimes do that. You fall into an oblivion where no one can find you because you found yourself. Do I want to catch you or fall with you?

You are a puzzle, and I am sure it’s irrelevant trying to figure you out. Some pieces are missing, some are borrowed, some change every day. You were never meant to be a perfect whole.

I can see your messy hair, the bags under your eyes and I want to ask you. ‘Did you waste your time overthinking or just wandering around that oblivion, searching for indulgence in someone else’s thoughts?’ 

It’s as simple as that. We’re real people, in real times. You are real, I am real, but not quite.

Song of the Day

Billie Marten – Live

I want to go places that I’ve never been
Rome, California, Paris, Berlin
I want to see things I’ve never seen
Quietly happy and live by the sea


They say don’t go out
Don’t get lost in the dark
Don’t go in too deep
Don’t swim out too far
They say don’t go out
Don’t go out too fast
Cos I feel it all and I need to live a little at last

I wanna stay out all night say hello to the dawn
Creep back to bed they’ll never know I was gone
Write songs through the day be alone with my thoughts
Spend time with the ones I’ve always adored


They say don’t go out
Don’t get lost in the dark
Don’t go in too deep
Don’t swim out too far
They say don’t go out
Don’t go out too fast
Cos I feel it all and I need to live a little at last

Make my own mistakes
For a [?] heart
I am not afraid
I will let down my guard


They say don’t go out
Don’t get lost in the dark
Don’t go in too deep
Don’t swim out too far
They say don’t go out
Don’t go out too fast
Cos I feel it all and I need to live a little at last

Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo

Woah woah woah so I told myself I am going to read a lot in this half term but I ended up watching a Korean drama….I regret nothing.


Meet my new obsession.

I haven’t watched a really really really good drama in awhile and everyone on my facebook feed was talking about this one. Finished airing?Yes. 16 episodes?Yes (I have a love-hate relationship with short dramas. They’re good for my available time, but they usually have an amazing story which could be continued, Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo being one.

Ugh I wanted to write this review straight after I’ve finished the drama- lazy. No excuses. I will try to keep my promises about posting on this blog.

Coming back, I recommend this drama .

The chemistry between the main characters is something I’ve never seen before, I swear. I want them together in real life too.

Without spoiling this for you, the drama touches some VERY REAL subjects like anxiety, depression, first love.

You learn that it’s alright to just give up sometimes. It’s okay to run away when you feel you’re burning out and your passion becomes a burden.

It’s alright to hate something you used to love.

It’s alright to feel lost after you finish university or realise in the middle of it that something is not quite right.

It’s alright to love someone who doesn’t love you because that’s how you learn.

It’s alright to love someone else even if you’re hurt. You should let other people heal your wounds.

It’s alright to lie your friends sometimes. You don’t have to tellthem everything.

It’s alright to learn walking daily as if it were for the first time.

It’s alright to not be alright.


It’s not alright to give up entirely. As Kim Bok Joo did, seek yourself whenever you want to, but don’t give up easily.

This Korean drama is more than just a TV show you watch, learn, obsess, then forget about it. It is like a journey that never ends. I just love it.

It made me really happy.


It’s so funny. The mains are dorks. I swear I laughed at least 10 times while watching an episode.


Both are so easily to identify with. I screamed ‘SO ME’ like thousands of times.


Faster than a Kiss and Japanese


Title: Tanaka Meca

Author: Tanaka Meca

Well hello, hello. I love long manga, I can’t lie. I loved this one so so so much.

But this is not a review more or less.

I am currently pissed off with myself because I hate taking naps in the middle of the day- waste of time and I am very angry after.

I am proud of myself though. My goal is to take the JLPT N4 exam next year and I keep working towards it. I am surrounded by Japanese books, notebooks etc.

I offer myself 1 hour per day for Japanese. And I am really determined to make this work.

I’ve started reading the Grisha trilogy too.

How are you guys?

Death of a Salesman by Arthur Miller


Title: Death of a Salesman

Author: Arthur Miller

Willy Loman has been a salesman for 34 years. At 60, he is cast aside, his usefulness exhausted. With no future to dream about he must face the crushing disappointments of his past. He takes one final brave action, but is he heroic at last or a self-deluding fool?

This is the first book I’ve finished in 2017.

This book’s a mess and if you read some information on the world wide cobweb of geniuses, you’ll find out that it’s supposed to be a mess.

I always read some quotations before reading a book (that’s how I usually choose a book when I am not really sure about its…quality). I was really surprised, while reading this book, that I was wrong. It’s a very short play which makes you beg for Henry VIII to behead you. It was one of the most boring books I’ve ever read.

Willy Bonka and his 2 sons: Sad and Beef. Their names are actually Happy and Biff- poor children cursed with repellent names. The meaning behind the story is lovely, what can I say…but the way it is exposed (or not) makes me think twice before reading a play again.

The book needs to be re-read so you can pick up the storyline which you can’t actually understand at first sight….or maybe the thought of the deadline made me hate the book more??? There is no engaging dialogue, only arguing. There are some hidden sparks along the play.

Probably this play resembles life so much that makes me hate it. It’s so blunt when it shouldn’t be. But hey this is a tragedy, it is supposed to make me feel pathos. I felt it for the author. Why write such a realistic play when you have the power of words to create whatever you want. I feel like Arthur Miller, instead of using writing as an escape, he made him feel sad.

The only thing I liked about it was the pun about Happy’s name. And these quotations:

Why am I trying to become what I don’t want to be … when all I want is out there, waiting for me the minute I say I know who I am.

The jungle is dark but full of diamonds

I realized what a ridiculous lie my whole life has been.

You can’t eat the orange and throw the peel away – a man is not a piece of fruit.

Be loving to him. Because he’s only a little boat looking for a harbor.

See, Biff, everybody around me is so false that I’m constantly lowering my ideals…

The only thing you’ve got in this world is what you can sell.

Sarah J. Maas offered 1 star. This is why I love her.